too late..

sad news was brought me by a friend.. just a while ago..

that one of our highschool batchmates, adrian maalzo passed away last january 17, 2010..
due to some kind of cancer in the throat.. or worse.. complications from this deadly disease..

now is january 25 and yesterday was the last day of the wake..

i felt that it's too late for me too felt sorry.. becasue it was long days back since he has consciousness to hear, fee, and see all those who care for him..

i remember that we used to be clasmates back when we are on the fourth grade.. i met him because our surnames were supposed to be near seated.. marcos starts with an 'm' too.. he's a noisy guy.. he talks and jokes and play with others..

sometime in college i saw him here at my school and we said greetings to each other.. stillr emembering that we used to be classmates..

anyhow.. it's goodbye.. too late for me to say but still not to express in this blog..
i know he enjoyed his worthful life.. ;] may 14, 1989-january 17, 2010

firefly in ricefield..

last night.. me and anamay slept over angel's house..
because she's alone..

the air was cool, breezy and relaxing..

their house was built in the middle of a rice field.. :]
upon our way toward the house we saw a fire fly, flying along the road.. i caught it but eventually set it free..

for there is this that i heard.. 'that fire flies are symbols of a healthy environment'

now a days, i haven't seen fire flies, last time was when i was still 10 or 11 years old.. the reason for this is the polluted environment..

fireflies are fascinating to watch and wonderful to explore..
how they get it's tail lighted and thier tiny bodies serves htat bright light into the dark..

sad to know that these little creatures are God's gift that most if us are not aware of.. not concerned of..

some snap shots at the rice field..

 

 

 

 

mistakes to learn..

most things are pre-judged..

mistakes happen..

discover and explore..

then decide.. :]

happy to know that im wrong.. :]

im down..

i got a failing score in our subject 'course audit' late this afternoon.. i was so disappointed with myself because i admit that i did not study hard but i did study.. somehow..

usually, i got a passing score even though i do not study much.. but this time i felt so down.. it's like i haven't understand our topic.. i think i did understand.. really! i even compare choices to select the best answer. and hoping to get it right but still... failed..

i hate myself for failing.. i was not suppose to fail.. my friend, april told me that maybe i was just confused with the terms and values.. but i dont feel confused.. oh  my goodness! i think im in a denial stage..

now, after blogging i'll study that lesson again.. even though we finished the discussion about it..

fun morphing!!..

i saw this form a friend and i tired it..

here's my morphs..!

the result of combining me and demi lovato.. is a chubby and fair-skinned demi lovato.. haha!

 

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while me and kim bum.. will possible have a baby like this one..;]

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i dont know if this boy has something he got from me.. hahah

i had fun... try it!!

love yet?..

i was not expecting this thing to be brought up by my a4 group mates..
may, ana and april are also asking me about it..

'have you been in love'??

unfortunately.. NOT YET..

i dont know.. maybe that's my fate..to find it when i never really expect to find it.. for now.. falling in love is not my priority.. but it's not bad if i experience it now.. sometimes, things like that serves as challenges, changes that most of us have been experiencing now..

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1. You were in a long-term relationship

2. You're shy and/or not very outgoing

3. You live in a small town or village

4. You've been single a long time and are set in your ways

5. You're just too picky

read it completely here:
http://hubpages.com/hub/Still-Single-Top-5-Reasons-Why-Youre-Alone

dream encounters..

others say that those who died still can communicate with the living..

through dreams.. stories i heard were.. "she said that she's ok, and she's in a peaceful place".. 'he told me not to worry".. or "i saw her in a beautiful place"

is it really true? that people meet their love ones in their dreams? since i haven't experienced any kind of this in my weird dreams.. i once thought of this.."what if, it's a psychological compensation, their minds compensate because of the loss they had and so their dreams tell them assurance.. not to worry anymore.. and that they should be stable and continue their lives"

of course this little theory of mine still needs a plenty of tests, testimonies and studies.. which i dont have the capacity to do..

but still i think that dreams are always telling us things that we should know or realize.. they are our unconscious thoughts.. i used to dream about persons doing activities of living..or in a place familiar to me.. but the weir thing is these dreams were somehow serve as my guide.. to what to expect or what to change or even what to do to others.. like somewhat premonitions.

that is why my dreams are significant for me.. it still needs complicated thinking and comparison between dreams and true life.. i think that's a nice thing to share about..

happy dreaming!!

cloud-like..

i chose to be the clouds instead of the sun,

for it constantly move and travels with the wind..

forming shapes and sizes, for eyes to see,

but still a cloud, obviously me..

opens the light in dark areas of the land,

as well as the shade for hot spots..

the sky is clear as i may not be visible,

i did not left the sky, just too thin to see..

not all the time that i can smile,

still need to release my heavy burdens..

cry as rain fall, sometimes as storm,

but brings refreshment to drying hearts of land..

most of the time, none seems to notice,

im just somewhere in your lives..

waiting for you to see, appreciate,

and meet the cloud-like me..

just tried to compose a poem with a touch of me.. :]

annoyed?..

i was hoping for something exciting to happen today.. as usual i attend classes at school, ate with my friends and dismissed early..

my other set of friends (royzy, cherry and amy)  met me at the lorenzo hall before going home, we went to a mall to eat and head to cherrys house just to hang out.. we ate again and talk some concerns.. her mother is very accommodating to us.. before we left their home, cherry gave us her late christmas gift.. a cute pillow (what i needed for the back of my neck) im excited to try it out tonight as i sleep.. hehe

mine was colored yellow green.. :]

but above all this events happened, i was quite annoyed with my new uniform.. (duty uniform, are for fourth year students only) i claimed it yesterday and wore it today.. but it was quite loose fit to me, i dont want it to be exactly fitted but i just want it to be just right.. but im in doubt if i would still hire for a sewer to adjust it for me, for it will take time to wait.. even days..

my friend refused to help me with this.. im disappointed with him.. (hmp!)

 but i know this will pass...

and maybe it is fate that tells me not to repair my uniform, preventing it to be mis-fitted.. i really hope this is fate.. because if it does not.. then i will suffer for the rest of the days im going to wear it..

wind-ay..

lunch time when i started to feel cold..but the air condition was turned off.. coldness increased as i left the classroom to eat with my friends..the moist air brushes my body and brings chills.. my friends also felt the sudden coolness of the wind, but enjoyed it as if we were in baguio city.. (summer capital in the philippines, it's cool there) until we went home the wind was with me..

i like windy days but it is easy for me to get cold..

maybe i need someone to hug and to absorb their body's heat..

ERea.. part 2

continuing my emergency room duty..

january 13 - wednesday
i was at the observation area earlier this day, the observation is where patients stay to be evaluated and observed (of course) whether they will be admitted or sent home.. it is like a mini ward.. with combination of all areas in the ER.. except obstetrics.. (surgical, medicine, and pediatrics).. as i describe it as a ward.. the things done there are like also on the ward.. you get the patient's vitals signs, give medications, replace iv fluids, and other procedures.. but unfortunately it has limited number of space, so it is crowded most of the time.. usually there should be two students per area, but one of my group mate, 'macy' cannot make it for duty because she was sick.. so my partner, 'florey' replaced 'macy' to the obstetrics area.. and i was left at the observation. but my good group mates, 'dave' and 'eina' helped me with the tasks in my assigned area. so it was not that TOXIC as others mention to be in the ER. there are no doctors in the observation, just nurses.. of course just referring to the doctors, regarding the condition of the patients and additional orders. but my helpful clinical instructor, 'mr. azania' was very patient to attend us with our needs and many questions.. whenever i am not doing anything, u help my other group mates in attending their patients, because they are also helping me.. just give and take..

the best thing after duty is that we ate in a eat-all-you-can.. we ate as much as we can and enjoy the food there, it is our treat to ourselves because all of the time we are very careful in spending and we realized that we need a break.. this is our first and last time to spend this big on food, because we usally bring our own food at duty..

best things..

so true... agree?

ERea..

my duty for this rotation is at the emergency room.. there are different areas there.. like obstetrics, surgery, medicine, pediatrics and observation.

january 11 - monday
i was in the medicine area.. i have my classmate as partner, florey. we almost lose the time to have a break because there were several patients to be monitored.. i felt good that i was able to do good. every day, i try to remember myself when i had my first duty at the ER last year.. and i think im improving. before.. some of us are still confused about the fast-paced procedures there.. i think that is the area that you will not expect to have no patients.. and when a patient arrives, sooner many are coming too.. very unpredictable, so we need to be there most of the time. the doctor there is very friendly, i like working with him.. :]

january 12 - tuesday
earlier today, i was in the pediatrics.. i just dont have the patience for a crying child.. i cant make them stop from crying.. but i do not have other difficulty in this area besides that.. the doctor there has a low and soft voice.. i can barely hear her.. so, i just respectfully ask her to repeat the order.. but above all, i enjoyed working there.. :]

aurora..

i've heard about this beautiful thing before.. and i now found the chance to better search about it..

it is so beautiful like magic spells, fairies and spirits..with colors and waves..

it looks like this..

isn't it beautiful and fascinating to look at??

i wish i could see real aurora in my own eyes.. took a picture of it and follow the rays..

what is aurora.?. here it is..

according to wikipedia..

Auroras, sometimes called the northern and southern (polar) lights or aurorae (singular: aurora), are natural light displays in the sky, usually observed at night, particularly in the polar regions. They typically occur in the ionosphere. They are also referred to as polar auroras.

the aurora borealis, named after the Roman goddess of dawn, Aurora, and the Greek name for north wind, Boreas. The aurora borealis is also called the northern polar lights, as it is only visible in the sky from the Northern Hemisphere, with the chance of visibility increasing with proximity to the North Magnetic Pole. (Earth's is currently in the arctic islands of northern Canada.) Auroras illuminate the northern horizon as a greenish glow or sometimes a faint red, as if the sun were rising from an unusual direction. The Cree people call this phenomenon the "Dance of the Spirits." In the middle ages the auroras have been called a sign from God


sometimes.. it's good to know these things.. :]

quiero aprender español..

it means.. " i want to learn spanish"

i got this translation at..

http://www.spanishdict.com/translation

i find the spanish language beautiful and closer to other filipino words.. because the philippines was once a spanish colony.. back in history.. but today others spanish words were being used..

english -          spanish -           filipino

grace -           gracia -          grasya

that is my name..

it's very simple but not all words were near to filipino translation.. before, colleges and universities used to include spanish in thier curriculum but today, english was more emphasized becasue it is the universal language..

here are some simple spanish words..

thank you = gracias

please = pro favor

no = no

yes = si

help = ayuda

im tired = im cansado

i love you = te amo

friend = amigo

male = macho

female = hembra

how are you = como estas

habit..

past life..

a friend shared her past life to me earlier this day.. she searched for it last night.. that is why i also did it..

my birth date was on May 23, 1989..i was born on tuesday

other May 23 events..
that was the day when Napoloen bonaparte was crowned king of italy
birthday of Sam Milby (fil-am actor) and Kim Sung-soo (korean actor)
the 143th day of the year.. (143=i love you) cute!
joan of arc was captured..
world turtle day.. hehe..
death of henry V (holy roman emperor).. 5 is my favorite number.. :]
the "55 parties" clause of the Kyoto protocol is reached after its ratification by Iceland



http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/

Your past Life diagnosis:

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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Wales around the year 1750. Your profession was that of a dramatist, director, musician or bard.

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Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You always liked to travel and to investigate. You could have been a detective or a spy.

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The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to conquer jealousy and anger in yourself and then in those who will select you as their guide. You should understand that these weaknesses are caused by fear and self-regret.

nice to know..

i am happy today, because i am comfortably studying and enjoying school life with my friends..
we talked and shared stories about each other.. it was never like before that we are always in each others company.. before, we are just two.. eating lunch together, then we became four and now.. we're almost ten..

they are my new friends, for almost a year we have been together, but since our retreat we became close to each other.. it's like we are bound to be a group.. came from different groups.

funny thing is, we have similar stories in life.. we are not afraid to admit mistakes and share realizations.. this may not be the perfect people to be with.. but i believe we can blend to each other.

i like meeting new people.. hearing new stories, touched by others lives.. and the feeling of belonging.. im proud to be one of them.. i hope this starting friendship still grow..

here we are..  lovely!

i want to.. part 2

another set of things i want to do..

learn how to play the guitar, the saxophone and the flute..

have a tiger as a pet..

to have a country-style house..

sleep on a cloud..

eat all kinds of cinnamon flavored food..

learn how to speak these languages..

 

discover a rain forest..

to be continued..again.. :]

love of my life..

by: michael w. smith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mXGckZhvr60 

 

I am amazed
When I look at you
I see you smiling back at me
It's like all my dreams come true

I am afraid
If I lost you girl
I'd fall through the cracks
And lose my track in this crazy lonely world

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When the nights can be so long
And faith give me the strength
And kept me going on

Chorus:
You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are the love
The love of my life

Now here you are
With midnight closing in
You take my hand as our shadows dance
With moonlite on your skin

I look in your eyes
I'm lost inside your kiss
I think if I'd never met you
About all the things I'd missed

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When a love can be so strong
And faith give me the strength
And keep me holding on

bruises..

by chairlift

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8HRCacAQ-4

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you yeah everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for
you

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you yeah everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for

Chorus:

You-ooo
For you-ooo
So black and blue-oooo
For you-ooo

Man verse:
I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruisy knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruisy knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue

2nd Verse:

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for

Chorus:

You-ooo
For you-ooo
So black and blue-ooo
For you-oooo

Do-doo-do-do-do
Do-doo-do-do-do
Do-doo-do-do-do
Do-doo-do-do-do
Do-doo-do-do-do

school after holidays..

one of the hardest thing to do is going back to school after the holiday break.. my mood isn't ready yet because im still thinking of fun and parties and long hours of sleep, while school requires me to wake up early and home works after school.
it is very hard for me, you know.. i know it is also for my classmates. but we need to do this. now that it is my last year in college.. few months wont hurt sompared to a life-long out-of-school days.. hehe
tomorrow will be the start of my last semester in nursing and now im doing my pending home works and will start reviewing for exams later.

good luck for me :]

change list..

for the year 2010 i have to change myself to be better..
here's my list.. f

this year i am..

1. studying harder..
2. reading more and more..
3. not to bully anymore.. trying harder not to..
4. enjoying school, because it is my last year in college..
5. being friendly.. i know it's good to be..
6. being confident..
7. saving money..
8. being more patient with simple things..
9. avoiding laziness..
10. improving my style..
11. showing love to those who deserves it..


thanks for reading.. :]