busy days..

i've been busy for the past week.. i have some commitments to attend like making a float for the sports fest parade (BS Nursing).. here what it looks like

(front view)

a friend, michael.. named this cute thing "ambu" short for ambulance hehe *obviously

 

photo taken at 2pm..in our school campus..

aside from having this simple design was a full-effort mural at the side and lots and lots of balloons.. sorry, no photos for this one.

here's the sad part of this float-making.. my mom caught me riding on a motorcycle.. yeah.. i lied that i was going to ride a tricycle back to school but we're so in hurry that i asked my schoolmate to hide at the corner of the street and wait me there.. but my mom followed me and caught me running from her.. ooh!! if you can imagine the guilt i experienced.. i can still remember it now.... then i got home at 11pm and then she scolded at me.. why do i have to lie.. yeah o know i was WRONG.. i don't know what to say but yeah im totally wrong. the nest day i have to leave early for 5.30am and since we slept separately (we used to share the same bed) i dont want to wake her.. when i was about to leave the house whe talked to me again and told me the wrong thing i have done and told me that she don't trust me anymore.. IT HURTS! for i earned her trust much..! still im soo guilty with that..

but now we're fine.. >< still awkward as i used to be home at nighttime.. i dont want to hear her scolding at me again.. it breaks my heart.. >< my mom and conscience are my weaknesses.

then, since it is sports fest, i accidentally joined the basketball team for girls.. unfortunately we lost.. but it's a good experience though.. all i knew was to guard the opponents and shoot the ball.. my friends supported me.. and laughed at me when i unintentionally hit a player at my back and she fell.. >< so embarrasing yet i enjoyed it!

while at school, we practiced the intermission number we're preparing for the seminar..there will be 2 songs that i was going to dance in..

i am also spending my late afternoon (4-7pm) after school at my friend's house making the backdrop and some props for our seminar on march 4.. oohh.. im quite excited and nervous..!

bled..

yesterday (feb.19, 2010) there was a blood donation activity in our school..

i decided days ago that i will donate.. again..
the first time i donated blood was almost 2 years ago and it was for Church benefits, so didn't receive a card..(which is a record that one has donated) i just received a pin.. red cross..
and yesterday.. i chose to get my card.. instead of a shirt..the card gives you privilege to get a bag of blood if any of your love ones needs blood..

yes.. it's painful.. the needle's quite big and it lasted for almost 20 minutes in my arm.. but what hurts more is the prick at my finger(for blood testing, btw my blood type is "AB").. it cause a purplish circle at the tip of my finger..


im so proud of myself being a blood donor!!

pictures taken will be posted soon :]

beatiful heart award..

 

thanks to..

ayu

Instructions:

1. List 4 things that keep your inner self beautiful.

2. List 4 things that keep you physically beautiful.

3. Tell us about a precious memory you keep close to your heart. [Optional]

4. Share this award with 5 other people that you think have a beautiful heart too.

5. Link the blogs of the people you chose and link the person's blog who awarded you.

6. Have fun!


Here it goes..


*List of 4 things that keep my inner self beautiful..
1. my appreciation to nature..
2. moments of conversations with God.. (while walking, writing, when im nervous)
3. my interest about people's simple happiness..
4. daydreaming..
5. bullying.. joking around..?


**List of 4 things that keep me physically beautiful..
1. my glittery lipstick and press powder..
2. my only accessories.. watch and earings..
3. my lunch box.. (food prepared by my mom, veggies!)
4. laughing..
5. you.. <3


***A precious memory which i keep close to my heart..
yesterday is now a memory.. everyday was special for me.. simple hi and conversations to me matters most.. for it will not be repeated again.. ever.. ><

****Share this award with 5 other people that you think have a beautiful heart too
(ill tagged those whom not yet receive this award)
clai
may
didz
ayu

enjoy-ieee!!

top commentator award..

 

thanks to..

Didz

tasks..

two-day exam started earlier today.. ans was about to end tomorrow morning.. haha

i wasn't ready to take the exam earlier but i have no choice..
and i'll be studying two subjects tonight for tomorrow's test..

but aside from that,
still need to contact some alumni to attend the seminar on march 4, 2010
complete working on the backdrop and event design..
working on an ambulance theme for the sports fest parade..
review on Saturday..

phew..i maybe forgetful at times but still need to give extra effort for these tasks..


good luck to me and to my classmates!!!

i2i..

dim, quiet and soundly

briskly towards home

saw someone like you

hope it was you

 you meant nothing

since we glanced

dilating eyes in the dark

 unexpectedly,

seeing me in your eyes

not less than a second

back to back

till next encounter

wheeling goodbye

O~O bicycle

admiration..

by incubus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5FRS1idEK24

 

Could you move in slow motion?
Everything goes by so fast
Just slow down a little
Save the best part for last

You speak in riddles
Your intentions turn me on
I'm your's forever
Will you love me when I'm gone?

When I'm gone!

When I'm gone,
You're an unfenced fire!
(When I'm gone,)
Over walls we've trampled!
(When I'm gone,)
It's you I admire!
(When I'm gone,)
My living example...

Your eyes are an undiscovered ocean far away
Any minute now keeping
Both poets and priests at bay
Don't get ahead of me
Could we just this once see eye to eye?
Could you want perhaps me?
Ask me how it feels to vie

To vie!

You're an unfenced fire! (to vie)
Over walls we trampled! (to vie)
It's you I admire! (to vie)
My living example...

It's a photograph discovered a decade after
It's a cannon blast disguised as a firecracker
It's enough to bring a brick wall to its knees
And sing, please

Could you move in slow motion?
Everything goes by so fast
Just slow down a little
Save the best part for last

For last!

You're an unfenced fire! (for last)
Over walls we trampled! (for last)
It's you I admire! (for last)
My living example...
My living example...

It's you I admire!!
My living example

hearts day..

 

 

a feeling that was about to grow is already dying..

kept untold but by fate unfolded,
behind a life of broken emotions.
a bloomed rose remain thorn-ed,
hurting beauty outcomes.


collision clears the friction,
rarely, mid-summer rain.
an arrow, points distinct perceptions,
yet a cross, to all directions.


daybreak with foggy setting,
but what is important is the coldness within.
for light can pass through,
but not the shadow of you.


thalamic as it may seem,
guilt and pretentious.
the feeling which soon to grow
was about to wither in spring

thougths on the dot..

it's 30 minutes before midnight.. and i have to review for an exam tomorrow..
still finding my mood to study..

taking my time to release some of my thoughts tonight..

* i proved that my love-advices were failures.. i really dont know how to speak "love"
* spending more.. is like breathing.. if you're with people worthy of it.. you know, it's easy.
* some people find others easy to let go.. can be lovers or can be friends..
* computers are sleep-busters.. it prevents me to sleep..
* living in our house is very simple..
* i;ve read some notes earlier and i learned a lot in leadership..
* i hate forcing myself to study.. that's why im here typing.. to unwind..
* im excited when everybody's feeling lazy..


little bit drowsy now..still next time

haha-heart..

 

still not love.. ><

aqueous tranmission..

by incubus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8s8YK4R5qa0

I'm floating down a river

Oars freed from their holds long ago

Lying face up on the floor of my vessel

I marvel at the stars

And feel my heart overflow

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Two weeks without my lover

I'm in this boat alone

Floating down a river named emotion

Will I make it back to shore

Or drift into the unknown



Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river



I'm building an antenna

Transmissions will be sent when I am through

Maybe we could meet again further down the river

And share what we both discovered...

Then revel in the view



Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river



I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

bicycle guy..

got home late today... passed 7pm (not that late) but the sun was out..

for the fourth time, i saw the bicycle guy i've mentioned last time.. life's little depressions
usually i see between 4-5pm



and the more i see him.. i enjoy it.. :]

my 25 random things...

tagged by beanizer's instincts


"25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about ME.At the end, choose up to 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you"

here's my version of 25 random things.. :]

1. i hate receiving colored-green gifts.. it gives me an excuse not to use it.. it'll only get dirty..
2. the first thing i want to do with my future boyfriend it to hug him from the back..
3. i want my skin to be lighter in color..
4. if i can sing good.. i'll sing everything i say..
5. 5 is my favorite number also :] (beanizer)
6. i have possessive persons.. i want freedom
7. 90s music is the best for me..
8. i need to pass and top the board exam.. hopefully! im not that good, but im doing my best
9. i feel sad when studying cancer..
10. i want to camp in a rainforest..
11. people find me unpredictable..
12. love pictures..
13. most used words are: (with my tone/intonation) sige, tamatama, sure, ohmygosh/goodness
14. im fond of eating ice cream.. it relaxes me
15. im a frustrated artist..
16. i am a good liar.. ><
17. i don't look at people's ages..
18. blending with others is easy for me as long as they are willing to let me in..
19. cinnamon is my favorite spice..
20. the instrument im dying to learn is the saxophone..
21. i want to learn to beatbox..
22. im pushing myself to be anorexic but i think anorexia can not handle me..
23. love my mom.. she's the best..
24. my guinea pig (wolverine) relaxes me when im tired.
25. sleeping is the thing i cannot resist..


this cant make it to 25..
the people to be tagged already answered their 25 randoms.. ;(

speak out..

earlier this day we (again) tried to agreed upon some issues related to our to-be-conducted seminar on the 1st week of march..
but as usual.. things happen again, voices raised.. and im not comfortable with it, if others find it funny or just ignores it.. i can help but notice it..
you know, i have feelings to.. and there are some significant feelings that are need to share about.. like the one i am feeling right now.. i am not against anyone.. i know that every person has the right to speak about his/her ideas and perceptions.. but it could be better if it's in a nice way.. a professional way rather..
some people, are used to talk differently.. some chose not to talk at all and some are trying to be heard but not given a chance to..
i cannot hate our class.. it's my family in school.. we may have differences but still we need to work on this together to be successful.. i just hope for my classmates to listen to anyone's idea and give him/her a chance to talk.. and of course to bring her self esteem up and not to reject it.. you know.. being considerate on  different matters can lead to a unified goal.. there is no and bad suggestion.. what's good is they did try to think and somehow contribute..

just want to share that i felt over-powered.. there are two ways which i can respond to this kind of situations..1) i felt melted with the words i heard and loss my self and what i stand for.. and 2.) it the voices remained that powerful and pissed me off.. i can do the things which have done to me.. and lose control over my temper and self..which is far more to happen.. i usually felt dying-guilty after i did that.. coz im not naturally that..

what happened is the first one.. i was depressed and weakened..
but what i felt is not important.. what i can do is much better..
i pray and hope that we learn how to listen.. to speak out is good and it is where leaders are formed through voices being heard.. but not let us remember that not all people can be as vocal as the others.. some tends to find the perfect time to shine and be recognized..

learned something?

life's little depressions..

here's some thoughts that depressed me on the dot...

1. the bicycle guy( whom i saw for the third time) while walking home, it depressed me that he's always biking.. i want to bike too.. i wonder why he's not at school..?

2. my not-so big school expenses.. the more i budget my allowance, the more things i want to spend of..

3. these past week.. i noticed myself bathing for almost 30 minutes.. i wonder how this crazy thing happen??

4. our topic in course audit subject today was about oncologic nursing (study of cancer).. it makes me sad..

5. finding it hard to feel relaxed when i think of the things i should know!

6. imagining the future..

7. thought of people's un-matched thoughts.. whom will i choose to believe in..

8. thinking of love..

the way i am..

by ingrid michaelson

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJOzdLwvTHA 

If you were falling
Then I would catch you.
You need a light
I’d find a match.

‘Coz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly,
here take my sweater.
Your head is aching,
I’ll make it better.

Coz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I’d buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

‘Coz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am

beneficial enough..

relaxing for a while can somehow stimulate your will to study..

ironically speaking.. but true..

last week, we have been released from subjects and review classes because of the annual college fair.. we did nothing..but i forgot.. a little bit work from our thesis still takes the place.. but most of the days we spent doing nothing..

this somehow relieved the stress in our gray matters (brain) from a whole-week study period of two months to go..

losing the internet connection since last week, for me is like being sealed in an empty box.. with less interest in watching television shows.. and not able to open my FB account.. i was stocked up with early study time and the feeling of "time should be worth-spent"..

i hope these things helps me in building a good study habit..
wish more perseverance and patience for me.. :]

this image is just nice to share but not to do..

see..