past present future.... tension?

 PAST

..last week,me and my other set of friends planned to get together for richard's birthday..

we stayed in a fast food chain and there we bought him a cake and eat all together

..as we plan for that date, i am very excited because i've been missing my friends,

we haven't seen each other for quite a long time.. or if even we did, we are not complete..

..yesterday we gathered again, shared stories, ate, took photos.. we weren't complete yet

everything went fine.

PRESENT

..earlier today, while i keep myself busy studying, answering exams and sometimes reading my

special book (i'll blog about it when i finished read it) i thought of the question.. "why did i attend those gatherings together with my friends? when after that im feeling this way.."

i was upset.. if i could turn back time ill stop myself..

it sounds selfish if my friends were to read this, they can't understand.. 

all they've got to say is "why? aren't you happy the time we've been along?

OF COURSE.. i am happy.. but why am i feeling this way now..

i wanted to change on how i see things.. because as i remember a line in my special book..

proverbs 19:11- a man's wisdom gives him patience.

i can be considered as a junk.. a lack patience, i get angry easily, im impulsive..im worst..

FUTURE

it's not hard for me to forgive.. but not to forget.. my weakness is guilty conscience,

i feel guilty of the things ive done and undone..

whenever i remember those significant memories, i wanted to get myself out of my body

and go somewhere else..

BUT...i believe i can change.. i like to think that

"the simple thought of something good is already a good thing"

and

"change starts with introspection"

the regrets i felt earlier ..? im done with it and i don't like to REGRET that I REGRETTED..

sounds ironic.. hehe but here's how im starting..

"i should first start to change the way i see things, then emotion will follow"

it was from my special book agaain.

...now, whenever i feel impulsive, im trying to see the goodness of that thing within.. im forcing

myself to see the positive side of things.. and saying this to my self:

"GOD, TAKE THIS FEELING IF IT'S NOT FROM YOU"

i believe in the power of prayer, and how God speaks to me with it..

to those who were to read this,,

please pray with me as i walk through

the phase of changing myself..

child in me..

1st ever for campaign..

our neighbor asked me take part for the barangay elections as watcher.. for a specific candidate(barangay captain with some kagawad / members of the board)..

earlier this morning he called me up to attend the campaign in our subdivision, and i joined in. first we went to a candidate's (for kagawad/ member of the board) house two streets away from a house, there the supporters of of this candidate gathered... including me. I dont even know any of them except our neighbor and another man (his wife was the one who made my nursing uniform, that's why i know him)..

i just sitted at the side and waited for others to come, then one by one.. those candidates to the members of the board came.. and AGAIN.. i dont know any of them.. you can only identify them by the color of their shirt (green) and the rest of the supporters are colored red...

we marched along the streets in our subdivision.. (that was tiring) others are giving away flyers, posters, stickers.. together along with a recorded song which identifies the candidates..

im fine with the campaign thing.. but i hate those some people in the campaign.. they're saying bad things about the other candidates, even though we're living within the same area.. when i hear someone talking effin like that.. i hate back stabbers and liars.. they're like child saying bad things to each other..

hope to enjoy the rest of the day ;]

how U C..

hey..pssst!

you think i need something like this?

but i think i need it..

some said yes, some said no because im already somewhat pleasing to them..
but i believe that to be your self you should feel good about yourself.. and there's nothing wrong with a simple make over..

plus.. some attitude remodelling.. i kind of lose my temper easily.. (guilty conscience again)

i love those who said YES, thanks for supporting my feelings..
.. and for those who said no.. effin NOT COOL!  kidding.. hehe

what do you think ;p


i plan to start this by december.. new year new look 

headaches..

literally.. i experienced pain on my head.. with few days apart..

first, i had this additional pierce at my left ear, it did not bleed but it was somewhat painful.. but not the most so far..
my friend camille, introduced me to her midwife friend hana.. who did the piercing thing to me..;p love it..

 

this was actually my ear.. hehe

second, is that i had a skin treatment yesterday.. it was soooo painful.. i was teary eyed after the procedure, it was my first time to under go cleaning in a dermatologist's clinic.. i dont want to undergo that thing again.. but the doctor said i need to go back after two weeks.. T_T

these was actually my tears..

kidding !

pain now happy later ;p

effin loving JF..

so loving james franco.. ;p

he's like my most handsome guy on earth..

he was spiderman's green goblin junior.. just so you know..

for me, he could play edward cullen's role better ;p (peace out to robpatt's fans)

taking time...

at this time i should be studying even if i don't have classes today..

but im here :]

just so you know, my weakness is guilty conscience.. i hate feeling guilty for the things i have done and undone.. surely later this day i'd be feeling this  because i've been relaxing at this time..

whenever i study, i used to be reading books, or even explaining to myself how this and that happened.. i want someone to share the things that i know, to asses how i really understand the situation.. but ironically, i tried encouraging my friends to form a group study but it fails.. maybe we just have to go along with our daily tasks..

at night as i study, when i feel sleepy already.. i go to sleep immediately, because i believe that i should not force myself to study if im tired.. but a day ago, our lecturer mentioned a phrase that struck me..

it was like this.. "as you relax and rest, others are preparing"... guilty conscience again!! so now i placed a memo at the front of my table with that saying... including the words "nagpapahuli ka ba? " or "are you letting your self be left behind?

but still i dont force my self to be neurotic in studying.. i just take my time.. the right time.. :]

God bless

avatar..

hi guys, recently we have a new baby around the house.. a young guinea pig considered as a baby because it's acting like one.. well i guess it's too young to be treated as a pet..

it's name is "avatar".. haha.. my mom gave that name..

but we also have a much bigger guinea pig than avatar.. it's name was wolverine (almost 9inches)..

anyway.. before avatar arrived in our house.. i used to wake up by 3.30am and study something, but instead of waking too early because of avatar's noise (guinea pigs usually have their distinct sound.. it's like whistling) at 3.30am as the sound of our alarm clock.. avatar is also sounds like an alarm to us..i used to overslept because of avatar waking up so early.. maybe im trying not to make noises so that it would not whistle more.. im kind of pissed off but i know it is too young, so maybe avatar needed some attention.. during the day i spend more time with it.. feeding , playing..

i hope it will grow as big as wolverine, avatar is now almost 4 inches.. :]

sign..

 

just want to share something:

im not the person who usually ask God for signs or something.. but a friend named eina, asked for a sign because she's so confused whether to file for the board exam or not.. she's feel that she's not ready to tkae the exam.. but if she'll ask me ill say that its better for her to take teh exam, take the risk and trust her ability.

the sign she asked was a white butterfly.. and God gave her that sign.. im very happy for her :]

last night i was also confused about deciding about a certain problem.. answerable by a yes or no.. i asked a friend about that but our conversation was cut off due to i cannot reply to her.. so i asked God, if (my classmate, who dont used to text me) texted about anything.. then i the answer to my problem was no.. later that night i was about to decide.. and my classmate sent me a message :]

thanks God

but you..

being creative..

LURVEEEET!!

i really love my wallpaper.. because i really searched for them... done some clicking and voila! a very greeny, clovery and refreshing wallpaper..

happy weekend everyone! IMY all..

studying..but a moment! post to blog for a while..

I MISS BLOGGING....

i read my last post and it was merely 2-3 months.. same as those who commend my post, i just approved them a while ago..

blogging changed me into someone i should have met before.. expressing thoughts here is like telling everyone who you are.. not afraid of rejections or criticisms.. this is my blog and this is my world..

ive been currently busy preparing for the board exam, meeting new people at our review facility.. time flied so fast and two months already passed.. i never thought that it was too early to discipline myself to develop study habits and to face reality of being a registered nurse..

i asked some people, including my mom, if she's bothered that i might fail the exam.. and all they said was "no", knowing that people around you are confident enough for me to pass is like the feeling that i already passed the exam..

i believe in myself that i have known this course.. i studied it (that's why i graduated from it) im putting efforts to be the best i can be.. i treat those who are better than me as motivation for me to study.. that i can still be better like them.. i enjoy having this kind of pressure.. i learn from my mistakes.. i do not worry if i forgot something cause i know it was just somewhere in my brain, waiting for the right moment to get out.. i want to help everybody build up the motivation to study harder.. people are saying things, that even if i dont study i can surely pass the board exam.. but this is what i believe, "if you are not going to study, how will you pass the exam? no one who took every exam has not prepared for it.. preparation is the key to success" i dont rely to stocked knowledge.. i continuously fill it with things i still need to know..

anxiety, for me does not exist this time.. but i believe it will few days before the exam..
ANXIETY add up with EXCITEMENT.. :]

God bless to others who will take the december nursing board exam
including clai and angelmay

time passed..

can't remember how long i've been off to blogging.. felt like forever..
but ive decided to post before my review for the nursing boards..

after graduation (last march2010) i learned that vacation is'nt REALLY fun.. since i've finished school..
my mom's not giving me money anymore.. (but she loads my cellphone, thank goodness she's not asking where am i spending my cellphone load and whom am i texting..etc...)
i came to develop this routine at home:
7.00am wake up
7.30am breakfast
8.00am clean the house
9.00am take a bath
9.30am read
11.00am watch TV
12nn lunch
1.00pm read
3.30pm watch TV
5.30pm snack/dinner
6.00pm read
8.00pm watch TV
11.00pm sleep

no wonder i've finished reading most of my nursing books.. BUT this routine isn't helping my social self.. im STILL stuck at home.. i want to go somewhere, see new things..seem like im frozen..

but on monday, im going to start my formal nursing board exam review at sta.mesa, manila..
too sad im on my own, but that's ok, i just think that it's my sacrifice.. being alone isn't bad,, as long as you dont keep yourself alone in the middle of the group you belong with..:]
maybe this is the challenge to my social self, learning from others, knowing new faces and living with change..

one important thing i've learned from schooling, it bounds people and separate them at the right time. and those you've kept for the longest, will last forever..

feel..

by: robbie williams

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=olYVnvfPDoI

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste

I don't want to die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel real love
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

yes or no..

middle of a crowd almost midnight,

feeling every body's urge to move..

finding their own ways.

Tired and weary as their digits entangles.

Only they, knew about it.

Hesitant to feel, to let go, to interpret.

An unexplainable forced innocence.

And after some time,

it turns into grasp to never let go until it was calm.

This was just nothing to the other..

but to me it was all..

just tired to make a 55 fiction..:] hope it passes to the standards..
anyways it's just a try.. hope you enjoyed it..

book..

babe..

Lyrics | Styx lyrics - Babe lyrics

true blood..

a new addiction..

True Blood is an award-winning American television drama series created and produced by Alan Ball. It is based on the The Southern Vampire Mysteries series of novels by Charlaine Harris, and details the co-existence of vampires and humans in Bon Temps, a fictional small Louisiana town. The series centers on Sookie Stackhouse (Anna Paquin), a telepathic waitress at a bar, who falls in love with vampire Bill Compton (Stephen Moyer).

The show is broadcast on the premium cable network HBO in the United States. It is produced by HBO in association with Ball's production company, Your Face Goes Here Entertainment^. It premiered on September 7, 2008.

The first season received critical acclaim and won several awards, including one Golden Globe and an Emmy. The show's second 12-episode season premiered on June 14, 2009. On July 30, 2009, HBO confirmed that True Blood would be renewed for a third season which began shooting on December 3, 2009. It will air beginning June 13, 2010, according to HBO.

In January 2010, Alan Ball confirmed that there will be a fourth season of True Blood.

Following the creation of synthetic blood, vampires have progressed from legendary monsters to fellow citizens overnight. Sookie Stackhouse (Anna Paquin) is a telepath and waitress at Merlotte's in the small Louisiana town of Bon Temps, owned by Sam Merlotte (Sam Trammell), a shapeshifter—though this secret is kept hidden. One night, Sookie meets Bill Compton (Stephen Moyer), a handsome 173-year-old vampire who has returned to Bon Temps following the death of his last remaining relative. As she cannot hear his thoughts, she finds it easy to be in his company and, over the first season, the two become romantically involved.

not intended for minors.. hehehe

i certainly love this.. :]

google it everyone!

hated..

i hate thinking about the things i was unsuccessful to do..
i dont want to create anger in my heart but i thinks it's burning inside..
how am i going to start another life with things involved with it..
now that i should do it in order to pay for a favor..

i know i dont have the right to condemn, to judge..
and much time passed till this present time..
i know somehow i have forgiven things..
only time heals but not erases mistakes..

so now i pray hard, every time i feel the fire..
this is not right so i need to be what is justifiable..
inner self versus society is paranoia..
only truth can bares it all..

therefore these last days, ill make it best..
ignore things for the good of all..
i know it wont last but at least i'll let it pass..
now's the second time, the chance.. take it from me..

ANGER "it's like a poison...it can take you over. Before you know it, it turns you ugly."

                                            dont take this seriously, but it's funny.. hehe

mr.right?..

Dating 101: Is He Mr. Right?


Dating Trait #1: He listens to you

The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthyof) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

 

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily

We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

 

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you

So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. 

 

 

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold.

 

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life

In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Does your Mr. Next possess all five qualities? If so, congratulations! You have done your homework, chosen wisely, and are now well positioned for relationship success.

If not, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back into the dating pool with a clearer understanding of who you want to date. Remember, finding your life partner isn't always easy, but by being clear, honoring yourself, and acting accordingly, you'll cut down on wasted time with Mr. Wrong and Mr. Next, and ultimately make room for Mr. Right. 

 

**i think he is.. but through this i realized he's not.. :(

maybe im just a friend to him... ><

summer..

i think.. this will be the most memorable summer..so far .. that will be happening..
for this is my last summer as a student.. >< well going to attend review classes by april and then goodbye school..

my and my clustered friends.. have plans for a enjoyable vacation.. they all suggested to have swimming..
so far i have 3 schedule of night swimming and 1 over night spending videoke..

i hope these plans materialize.. because i hate being upset with the things i hope for..

my friends have different preferences.. some wants the event to be extra special, some was just ordinary and some memorable..

im happy to have different personalites of friends.. which.. i can surely cope up with.. :]

happy summer!

clinical..

earlier was our clinical graduation.. which is intended only for student nurses..

we almost got late, because .. we dont know why, haha..

i've got pictures of me and my friends, we are happy and participative,. (me?) haha, and some of us got emotional while singing the song chosen for our parents.. "salamat" (thank you in english) by yeng constantino..

i was inspired by my friend's short speech for the students and for the administrators.. we didn't said out goodbyes yet, because it is only the first part of graduation.. the second part is on saturday.. march 27.. the academic graduation, together with all the courses..

here's some photos..

mixed up..

it'll be graduation day next week..
March 22 - Clinical Graduation (for student nurses only)
March 27 - Academic Graduation (for all graduating students)

i know all of us, hygeia batch2010. feels the same way, mixed emotions of happiness and sadness for this school days will be over within a couple of weeks. *sigh.. it's hard to leave people you've been seeing for almost four years, learning and having fun whatever we are doing..
i believe to the saying 'save the best for the last'. coz i have been experiencing my best days this past week months, .. i think im not ready to let go of being a student yet, i want to spend time learning more.. and enjoying everytime we have to attend classes and duties.. but it's over.. now is the time to stand on my own feet.
it's so emotional for every graduate to remember the things they have been through for the past 4 years.. as every individual has to be and should be,, every thing has to end.. at the graduation day..
hopefully we wont forget each other soon.. somehow, we've touched each other's hearts and stick to each other's minds..

God bless to hygeia batch 2010 and to all the graduates..

the "f" word remind me of a person..

not a friendly word..

simply this..

do i look like a guy?

i dont like it when a person told me that i look like a guy.. yes, i got my father's looks but still in a girly way.. obviously because im a girl..

sometimes i get insecure with myself because i dont have that beautiful feminine features, but still satisfied with what i look.. just accepting that other women are blessed to have pretty faces and girly looks.. and some are not..

sometimes, i see myself as typical, normal, unnoticed and one of the crowd.. but when someone recognizes me and lift my personality to others.. that's when i start to feel ..'me'.. the feeling of getting yourself known..

that's the reason why i dont wear make up.. or anything.. but now being influenced with my pretty friends.. im starting to fix myself and be pretty recognizable.. hopefully..

and now here i go again, insecurity invades my personalty.. psychologically and socially..

i want to be like every other ladies who look pretty.. ><

im not pleasing anyone to like me.....and that person?.... i think just teased me because i think im the least pretty girl he/she know.. so mean! hate it..

:(

want to see my pictures? click g-r-a-n-e
.. it's my facebook account..

lub-dub..lub-dub..

that's the sound of the HEART.. <3

my heart.. ><

im in doubt.. so therefore.. i'll love..?

hottiness..

im so bothered wiht this global warming.. but i dont know what significant action i should do..

im just a nobody, as compared to the authority responsible for climate changes.. but of course all of us are generally responsible for the effects..

the weather's so hot, even just sitting down can cause you to sweat.. isn't it alarming that water is running out? water for living.. hot weather can cause you heat stroke, sun burns, eye effects (vision impairments), and others..

my friends are planning to go swimming, but im kind of hesitant to join because i can imagine myself boiling in the swimming pool .. i dont want my skin to be darker..><

some friends and i decided to form a less-plastic-consuming-group.. i hope this can make a change..

i hope someday, somehow.. this climate change will reverse.. let's pray for it.. and do something for it.. i believe that proper education and cooperation are the key to this problem.

back for a moment..

updates on me..

done with the seminar.. last week thursday (march4,2010) it was i believe,, the grandest seminar among the four section.. ill post some pictures when i have time to upload them.. we've done good.. although of course some people are not yet pleased with our full effort preparation..

anyways, this week end.. we attended the routinely-week-end-review.. subject was about research.. or thesis.. been good :] not boring reviewer.. she's cool... literally.. she provide us reasonable time for beaks.. comes early and dismisses early..

now,, (monday) we're going on duty .. our LAST STUDENT duty.. for the next time that we'll going to be on duty is when we passed the board exam.. you know this somehow pressures me, coz our clinical intructor is the most 'toxic' one.. or i should say.. in his area.. you will move, act and do things on your own.. like a real ward nurse.. well, too early to judge the rotation duty but i'll do my best to satisfy my instructor's orders..

good luck for me!!

till next time!!

 

a shot with my lovely friends in a restaurant.. celebrating after the seminar..

from the left: april, angel, me, annamay & anamarie

 

me and my beautiful classmates.. in their dance clothes.. me, still in my chinese costume..

busy days..

i've been busy for the past week.. i have some commitments to attend like making a float for the sports fest parade (BS Nursing).. here what it looks like

(front view)

a friend, michael.. named this cute thing "ambu" short for ambulance hehe *obviously

 

photo taken at 2pm..in our school campus..

aside from having this simple design was a full-effort mural at the side and lots and lots of balloons.. sorry, no photos for this one.

here's the sad part of this float-making.. my mom caught me riding on a motorcycle.. yeah.. i lied that i was going to ride a tricycle back to school but we're so in hurry that i asked my schoolmate to hide at the corner of the street and wait me there.. but my mom followed me and caught me running from her.. ooh!! if you can imagine the guilt i experienced.. i can still remember it now.... then i got home at 11pm and then she scolded at me.. why do i have to lie.. yeah o know i was WRONG.. i don't know what to say but yeah im totally wrong. the nest day i have to leave early for 5.30am and since we slept separately (we used to share the same bed) i dont want to wake her.. when i was about to leave the house whe talked to me again and told me the wrong thing i have done and told me that she don't trust me anymore.. IT HURTS! for i earned her trust much..! still im soo guilty with that..

but now we're fine.. >< still awkward as i used to be home at nighttime.. i dont want to hear her scolding at me again.. it breaks my heart.. >< my mom and conscience are my weaknesses.

then, since it is sports fest, i accidentally joined the basketball team for girls.. unfortunately we lost.. but it's a good experience though.. all i knew was to guard the opponents and shoot the ball.. my friends supported me.. and laughed at me when i unintentionally hit a player at my back and she fell.. >< so embarrasing yet i enjoyed it!

while at school, we practiced the intermission number we're preparing for the seminar..there will be 2 songs that i was going to dance in..

i am also spending my late afternoon (4-7pm) after school at my friend's house making the backdrop and some props for our seminar on march 4.. oohh.. im quite excited and nervous..!

bled..

yesterday (feb.19, 2010) there was a blood donation activity in our school..

i decided days ago that i will donate.. again..
the first time i donated blood was almost 2 years ago and it was for Church benefits, so didn't receive a card..(which is a record that one has donated) i just received a pin.. red cross..
and yesterday.. i chose to get my card.. instead of a shirt..the card gives you privilege to get a bag of blood if any of your love ones needs blood..

yes.. it's painful.. the needle's quite big and it lasted for almost 20 minutes in my arm.. but what hurts more is the prick at my finger(for blood testing, btw my blood type is "AB").. it cause a purplish circle at the tip of my finger..


im so proud of myself being a blood donor!!

pictures taken will be posted soon :]

beatiful heart award..

 

thanks to..

ayu

Instructions:

1. List 4 things that keep your inner self beautiful.

2. List 4 things that keep you physically beautiful.

3. Tell us about a precious memory you keep close to your heart. [Optional]

4. Share this award with 5 other people that you think have a beautiful heart too.

5. Link the blogs of the people you chose and link the person's blog who awarded you.

6. Have fun!


Here it goes..


*List of 4 things that keep my inner self beautiful..
1. my appreciation to nature..
2. moments of conversations with God.. (while walking, writing, when im nervous)
3. my interest about people's simple happiness..
4. daydreaming..
5. bullying.. joking around..?


**List of 4 things that keep me physically beautiful..
1. my glittery lipstick and press powder..
2. my only accessories.. watch and earings..
3. my lunch box.. (food prepared by my mom, veggies!)
4. laughing..
5. you.. <3


***A precious memory which i keep close to my heart..
yesterday is now a memory.. everyday was special for me.. simple hi and conversations to me matters most.. for it will not be repeated again.. ever.. ><

****Share this award with 5 other people that you think have a beautiful heart too
(ill tagged those whom not yet receive this award)
clai
may
didz
ayu

enjoy-ieee!!

top commentator award..

 

thanks to..

Didz

tasks..

two-day exam started earlier today.. ans was about to end tomorrow morning.. haha

i wasn't ready to take the exam earlier but i have no choice..
and i'll be studying two subjects tonight for tomorrow's test..

but aside from that,
still need to contact some alumni to attend the seminar on march 4, 2010
complete working on the backdrop and event design..
working on an ambulance theme for the sports fest parade..
review on Saturday..

phew..i maybe forgetful at times but still need to give extra effort for these tasks..


good luck to me and to my classmates!!!

i2i..

dim, quiet and soundly

briskly towards home

saw someone like you

hope it was you

 you meant nothing

since we glanced

dilating eyes in the dark

 unexpectedly,

seeing me in your eyes

not less than a second

back to back

till next encounter

wheeling goodbye

O~O bicycle

admiration..

by incubus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5FRS1idEK24

 

Could you move in slow motion?
Everything goes by so fast
Just slow down a little
Save the best part for last

You speak in riddles
Your intentions turn me on
I'm your's forever
Will you love me when I'm gone?

When I'm gone!

When I'm gone,
You're an unfenced fire!
(When I'm gone,)
Over walls we've trampled!
(When I'm gone,)
It's you I admire!
(When I'm gone,)
My living example...

Your eyes are an undiscovered ocean far away
Any minute now keeping
Both poets and priests at bay
Don't get ahead of me
Could we just this once see eye to eye?
Could you want perhaps me?
Ask me how it feels to vie

To vie!

You're an unfenced fire! (to vie)
Over walls we trampled! (to vie)
It's you I admire! (to vie)
My living example...

It's a photograph discovered a decade after
It's a cannon blast disguised as a firecracker
It's enough to bring a brick wall to its knees
And sing, please

Could you move in slow motion?
Everything goes by so fast
Just slow down a little
Save the best part for last

For last!

You're an unfenced fire! (for last)
Over walls we trampled! (for last)
It's you I admire! (for last)
My living example...
My living example...

It's you I admire!!
My living example

hearts day..

 

 

a feeling that was about to grow is already dying..

kept untold but by fate unfolded,
behind a life of broken emotions.
a bloomed rose remain thorn-ed,
hurting beauty outcomes.


collision clears the friction,
rarely, mid-summer rain.
an arrow, points distinct perceptions,
yet a cross, to all directions.


daybreak with foggy setting,
but what is important is the coldness within.
for light can pass through,
but not the shadow of you.


thalamic as it may seem,
guilt and pretentious.
the feeling which soon to grow
was about to wither in spring

thougths on the dot..

it's 30 minutes before midnight.. and i have to review for an exam tomorrow..
still finding my mood to study..

taking my time to release some of my thoughts tonight..

* i proved that my love-advices were failures.. i really dont know how to speak "love"
* spending more.. is like breathing.. if you're with people worthy of it.. you know, it's easy.
* some people find others easy to let go.. can be lovers or can be friends..
* computers are sleep-busters.. it prevents me to sleep..
* living in our house is very simple..
* i;ve read some notes earlier and i learned a lot in leadership..
* i hate forcing myself to study.. that's why im here typing.. to unwind..
* im excited when everybody's feeling lazy..


little bit drowsy now..still next time

haha-heart..

 

still not love.. ><

aqueous tranmission..

by incubus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8s8YK4R5qa0

I'm floating down a river

Oars freed from their holds long ago

Lying face up on the floor of my vessel

I marvel at the stars

And feel my heart overflow

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Two weeks without my lover

I'm in this boat alone

Floating down a river named emotion

Will I make it back to shore

Or drift into the unknown



Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river



I'm building an antenna

Transmissions will be sent when I am through

Maybe we could meet again further down the river

And share what we both discovered...

Then revel in the view



Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river

Further down the river



I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

I'm floating down a river

bicycle guy..

got home late today... passed 7pm (not that late) but the sun was out..

for the fourth time, i saw the bicycle guy i've mentioned last time.. life's little depressions
usually i see between 4-5pm



and the more i see him.. i enjoy it.. :]