1st ever for campaign..

our neighbor asked me take part for the barangay elections as watcher.. for a specific candidate(barangay captain with some kagawad / members of the board)..

earlier this morning he called me up to attend the campaign in our subdivision, and i joined in. first we went to a candidate's (for kagawad/ member of the board) house two streets away from a house, there the supporters of of this candidate gathered... including me. I dont even know any of them except our neighbor and another man (his wife was the one who made my nursing uniform, that's why i know him)..

i just sitted at the side and waited for others to come, then one by one.. those candidates to the members of the board came.. and AGAIN.. i dont know any of them.. you can only identify them by the color of their shirt (green) and the rest of the supporters are colored red...

we marched along the streets in our subdivision.. (that was tiring) others are giving away flyers, posters, stickers.. together along with a recorded song which identifies the candidates..

im fine with the campaign thing.. but i hate those some people in the campaign.. they're saying bad things about the other candidates, even though we're living within the same area.. when i hear someone talking effin like that.. i hate back stabbers and liars.. they're like child saying bad things to each other..

hope to enjoy the rest of the day ;]

hey..pssst!

you think i need something like this?

but i think i need it..

some said yes, some said no because im already somewhat pleasing to them..
but i believe that to be your self you should feel good about yourself.. and there's nothing wrong with a simple make over..

plus.. some attitude remodelling.. i kind of lose my temper easily.. (guilty conscience again)

i love those who said YES, thanks for supporting my feelings..
.. and for those who said no.. effin NOT COOL!  kidding.. hehe

what do you think ;p


i plan to start this by december.. new year new look 

avatar..

hi guys, recently we have a new baby around the house.. a young guinea pig considered as a baby because it's acting like one.. well i guess it's too young to be treated as a pet..

it's name is "avatar".. haha.. my mom gave that name..

but we also have a much bigger guinea pig than avatar.. it's name was wolverine (almost 9inches)..

anyway.. before avatar arrived in our house.. i used to wake up by 3.30am and study something, but instead of waking too early because of avatar's noise (guinea pigs usually have their distinct sound.. it's like whistling) at 3.30am as the sound of our alarm clock.. avatar is also sounds like an alarm to us..i used to overslept because of avatar waking up so early.. maybe im trying not to make noises so that it would not whistle more.. im kind of pissed off but i know it is too young, so maybe avatar needed some attention.. during the day i spend more time with it.. feeding , playing..

i hope it will grow as big as wolverine, avatar is now almost 4 inches.. :]

hated..

i hate thinking about the things i was unsuccessful to do..
i dont want to create anger in my heart but i thinks it's burning inside..
how am i going to start another life with things involved with it..
now that i should do it in order to pay for a favor..

i know i dont have the right to condemn, to judge..
and much time passed till this present time..
i know somehow i have forgiven things..
only time heals but not erases mistakes..

so now i pray hard, every time i feel the fire..
this is not right so i need to be what is justifiable..
inner self versus society is paranoia..
only truth can bares it all..

therefore these last days, ill make it best..
ignore things for the good of all..
i know it wont last but at least i'll let it pass..
now's the second time, the chance.. take it from me..

ANGER "it's like a poison...it can take you over. Before you know it, it turns you ugly."

                                            dont take this seriously, but it's funny.. hehe

back for a moment..

updates on me..

done with the seminar.. last week thursday (march4,2010) it was i believe,, the grandest seminar among the four section.. ill post some pictures when i have time to upload them.. we've done good.. although of course some people are not yet pleased with our full effort preparation..

anyways, this week end.. we attended the routinely-week-end-review.. subject was about research.. or thesis.. been good :] not boring reviewer.. she's cool... literally.. she provide us reasonable time for beaks.. comes early and dismisses early..

now,, (monday) we're going on duty .. our LAST STUDENT duty.. for the next time that we'll going to be on duty is when we passed the board exam.. you know this somehow pressures me, coz our clinical intructor is the most 'toxic' one.. or i should say.. in his area.. you will move, act and do things on your own.. like a real ward nurse.. well, too early to judge the rotation duty but i'll do my best to satisfy my instructor's orders..

good luck for me!!

till next time!!

 

a shot with my lovely friends in a restaurant.. celebrating after the seminar..

from the left: april, angel, me, annamay & anamarie

 

me and my beautiful classmates.. in their dance clothes.. me, still in my chinese costume..

busy days..

i've been busy for the past week.. i have some commitments to attend like making a float for the sports fest parade (BS Nursing).. here what it looks like

(front view)

a friend, michael.. named this cute thing "ambu" short for ambulance hehe *obviously

 

photo taken at 2pm..in our school campus..

aside from having this simple design was a full-effort mural at the side and lots and lots of balloons.. sorry, no photos for this one.

here's the sad part of this float-making.. my mom caught me riding on a motorcycle.. yeah.. i lied that i was going to ride a tricycle back to school but we're so in hurry that i asked my schoolmate to hide at the corner of the street and wait me there.. but my mom followed me and caught me running from her.. ooh!! if you can imagine the guilt i experienced.. i can still remember it now.... then i got home at 11pm and then she scolded at me.. why do i have to lie.. yeah o know i was WRONG.. i don't know what to say but yeah im totally wrong. the nest day i have to leave early for 5.30am and since we slept separately (we used to share the same bed) i dont want to wake her.. when i was about to leave the house whe talked to me again and told me the wrong thing i have done and told me that she don't trust me anymore.. IT HURTS! for i earned her trust much..! still im soo guilty with that..

but now we're fine.. >< still awkward as i used to be home at nighttime.. i dont want to hear her scolding at me again.. it breaks my heart.. >< my mom and conscience are my weaknesses.

then, since it is sports fest, i accidentally joined the basketball team for girls.. unfortunately we lost.. but it's a good experience though.. all i knew was to guard the opponents and shoot the ball.. my friends supported me.. and laughed at me when i unintentionally hit a player at my back and she fell.. >< so embarrasing yet i enjoyed it!

while at school, we practiced the intermission number we're preparing for the seminar..there will be 2 songs that i was going to dance in..

i am also spending my late afternoon (4-7pm) after school at my friend's house making the backdrop and some props for our seminar on march 4.. oohh.. im quite excited and nervous..!

bled..

yesterday (feb.19, 2010) there was a blood donation activity in our school..

i decided days ago that i will donate.. again..
the first time i donated blood was almost 2 years ago and it was for Church benefits, so didn't receive a card..(which is a record that one has donated) i just received a pin.. red cross..
and yesterday.. i chose to get my card.. instead of a shirt..the card gives you privilege to get a bag of blood if any of your love ones needs blood..

yes.. it's painful.. the needle's quite big and it lasted for almost 20 minutes in my arm.. but what hurts more is the prick at my finger(for blood testing, btw my blood type is "AB").. it cause a purplish circle at the tip of my finger..


im so proud of myself being a blood donor!!

pictures taken will be posted soon :]

tasks..

two-day exam started earlier today.. ans was about to end tomorrow morning.. haha

i wasn't ready to take the exam earlier but i have no choice..
and i'll be studying two subjects tonight for tomorrow's test..

but aside from that,
still need to contact some alumni to attend the seminar on march 4, 2010
complete working on the backdrop and event design..
working on an ambulance theme for the sports fest parade..
review on Saturday..

phew..i maybe forgetful at times but still need to give extra effort for these tasks..


good luck to me and to my classmates!!!

beneficial enough..

relaxing for a while can somehow stimulate your will to study..

ironically speaking.. but true..

last week, we have been released from subjects and review classes because of the annual college fair.. we did nothing..but i forgot.. a little bit work from our thesis still takes the place.. but most of the days we spent doing nothing..

this somehow relieved the stress in our gray matters (brain) from a whole-week study period of two months to go..

losing the internet connection since last week, for me is like being sealed in an empty box.. with less interest in watching television shows.. and not able to open my FB account.. i was stocked up with early study time and the feeling of "time should be worth-spent"..

i hope these things helps me in building a good study habit..
wish more perseverance and patience for me.. :]

this image is just nice to share but not to do..

cloud-like..

i chose to be the clouds instead of the sun,

for it constantly move and travels with the wind..

forming shapes and sizes, for eyes to see,

but still a cloud, obviously me..

opens the light in dark areas of the land,

as well as the shade for hot spots..

the sky is clear as i may not be visible,

i did not left the sky, just too thin to see..

not all the time that i can smile,

still need to release my heavy burdens..

cry as rain fall, sometimes as storm,

but brings refreshment to drying hearts of land..

most of the time, none seems to notice,

im just somewhere in your lives..

waiting for you to see, appreciate,

and meet the cloud-like me..

just tried to compose a poem with a touch of me.. :]

annoyed?..

i was hoping for something exciting to happen today.. as usual i attend classes at school, ate with my friends and dismissed early..

my other set of friends (royzy, cherry and amy)  met me at the lorenzo hall before going home, we went to a mall to eat and head to cherrys house just to hang out.. we ate again and talk some concerns.. her mother is very accommodating to us.. before we left their home, cherry gave us her late christmas gift.. a cute pillow (what i needed for the back of my neck) im excited to try it out tonight as i sleep.. hehe

mine was colored yellow green.. :]

but above all this events happened, i was quite annoyed with my new uniform.. (duty uniform, are for fourth year students only) i claimed it yesterday and wore it today.. but it was quite loose fit to me, i dont want it to be exactly fitted but i just want it to be just right.. but im in doubt if i would still hire for a sewer to adjust it for me, for it will take time to wait.. even days..

my friend refused to help me with this.. im disappointed with him.. (hmp!)

 but i know this will pass...

and maybe it is fate that tells me not to repair my uniform, preventing it to be mis-fitted.. i really hope this is fate.. because if it does not.. then i will suffer for the rest of the days im going to wear it..

ERea.. part 2

continuing my emergency room duty..

january 13 - wednesday
i was at the observation area earlier this day, the observation is where patients stay to be evaluated and observed (of course) whether they will be admitted or sent home.. it is like a mini ward.. with combination of all areas in the ER.. except obstetrics.. (surgical, medicine, and pediatrics).. as i describe it as a ward.. the things done there are like also on the ward.. you get the patient's vitals signs, give medications, replace iv fluids, and other procedures.. but unfortunately it has limited number of space, so it is crowded most of the time.. usually there should be two students per area, but one of my group mate, 'macy' cannot make it for duty because she was sick.. so my partner, 'florey' replaced 'macy' to the obstetrics area.. and i was left at the observation. but my good group mates, 'dave' and 'eina' helped me with the tasks in my assigned area. so it was not that TOXIC as others mention to be in the ER. there are no doctors in the observation, just nurses.. of course just referring to the doctors, regarding the condition of the patients and additional orders. but my helpful clinical instructor, 'mr. azania' was very patient to attend us with our needs and many questions.. whenever i am not doing anything, u help my other group mates in attending their patients, because they are also helping me.. just give and take..

the best thing after duty is that we ate in a eat-all-you-can.. we ate as much as we can and enjoy the food there, it is our treat to ourselves because all of the time we are very careful in spending and we realized that we need a break.. this is our first and last time to spend this big on food, because we usally bring our own food at duty..

ERea..

my duty for this rotation is at the emergency room.. there are different areas there.. like obstetrics, surgery, medicine, pediatrics and observation.

january 11 - monday
i was in the medicine area.. i have my classmate as partner, florey. we almost lose the time to have a break because there were several patients to be monitored.. i felt good that i was able to do good. every day, i try to remember myself when i had my first duty at the ER last year.. and i think im improving. before.. some of us are still confused about the fast-paced procedures there.. i think that is the area that you will not expect to have no patients.. and when a patient arrives, sooner many are coming too.. very unpredictable, so we need to be there most of the time. the doctor there is very friendly, i like working with him.. :]

january 12 - tuesday
earlier today, i was in the pediatrics.. i just dont have the patience for a crying child.. i cant make them stop from crying.. but i do not have other difficulty in this area besides that.. the doctor there has a low and soft voice.. i can barely hear her.. so, i just respectfully ask her to repeat the order.. but above all, i enjoyed working there.. :]

quiero aprender español..

it means.. " i want to learn spanish"

i got this translation at..

http://www.spanishdict.com/translation

i find the spanish language beautiful and closer to other filipino words.. because the philippines was once a spanish colony.. back in history.. but today others spanish words were being used..

english -          spanish -           filipino

grace -           gracia -          grasya

that is my name..

it's very simple but not all words were near to filipino translation.. before, colleges and universities used to include spanish in thier curriculum but today, english was more emphasized becasue it is the universal language..

here are some simple spanish words..

thank you = gracias

please = pro favor

no = no

yes = si

help = ayuda

im tired = im cansado

i love you = te amo

friend = amigo

male = macho

female = hembra

how are you = como estas

change list..

for the year 2010 i have to change myself to be better..
here's my list.. f

this year i am..

1. studying harder..
2. reading more and more..
3. not to bully anymore.. trying harder not to..
4. enjoying school, because it is my last year in college..
5. being friendly.. i know it's good to be..
6. being confident..
7. saving money..
8. being more patient with simple things..
9. avoiding laziness..
10. improving my style..
11. showing love to those who deserves it..


thanks for reading.. :]

hoping to finish this..

im the kind of person who get things done fast, im working with my group for thesis and i think we are getting slower and slower everytime we need to accomplish something. maybe bacause our time managemetn was not fixed well or some of us was less interested in helping. i want to live in a fast-paced life, but not all people can sope with me, that is why i feel guilt, mabye they are pressured with my actions and ideas. but this effort i am giving is for the success of our group. i hate doing thigs alone, i see myself as pathetic. but i usually do things on my own, and asks them for editing my work or adding up infos i missed.
i dont know why i am feeling like it is my own fault.
i dont hate lazy people, the thing i am annoyed most were people who do not know how to return a favor, a simple favor.
i remember what my management professor told us: "we all have the same number of hours a day, and it is up to us on how we are going to spend it" i admit that i am lazy at times, i feel sleepy reading books and choose updating my facebook rather than studying. but i also remind myself that i am a fourth year student, and few months from now i will graduate and live my chosen career now. that is my wake-up-call for studying.. "my future" and it is effective enough to make me read some of my notes sometimes.
i hope everyone also realizes my thougths.

scared from what i do not know..

earlier this morning, i realized my fear.. why i do not what to do such thing is because i lack confidence and knowledge. i was disappointed with myself, for i thought i was striving to be better... but realized that my best is not good enough.. :( hopefully, that experience will help me strive to be better and i believe that it is not too late to change.. i'll stop regretting the past and just prepare for the future. ;)

methanoia.. change of heart

we had our retreat last december 1,2 and 3 at bagiuo city, the hygeia batch of nursing undergone to this spiritual activity to unwind and renewing our faith to God.
i belong to section a, whom our retreat master was father vhon rudolf villacarlos, the parish priest of talim island. i just want to share some thoughts about our retreat sessions:
the word retreat mans to surrender or to back out but it doesn't mean that it is a defeat, it is rather a triumph.
"what is essential is invisible to the eyes", we keep on looking for the perfect person, place, happening  etc. but the things that we cannot see are in it's simplest form and all we need is to feel it and realize it's true meaning. i remember the movie 'kung-fu panda' where they train hard to get the position of being the dragon warrior, but when po, the panda was chosen and rewarded with the sacred scroll of the dragon warrior, it is empty and all he saw was the reflection of himself. sometimes, we expect the most out of other people especially from our family. but 'there are no perfect family or parents, but we can be a perfect child for our family'. change is the only constant thing in this world but we find it hard to do so.
we discussed about changing ourselves to be like Jesus, how to be like Jesus? the keywords were: Humility, Empathy, Sincerity, Unconditional love, Sensitivity
we should "put our problem down every end of the day" and simply talk to God, about your concerns, about how you feel, get your self near Him by conversing with Him through prayer. remember that 'God does not count your wrong doings, the only thing that He counts is the effort we do to stay away from sin' He recognize our simple efforts in repelling sin.
lastly, 'we always look for miracles to happen, but it's better if we will be the miracle to others' let us put words into action and make a change, a difference from what others routinely do. be unique and share your love to others.