new year..

fascinating fireworks..!

welcoming the new year 2010..

with the tiger..!

i want to..

here's the list of things i want to do..
(not in order)

attend a presentation in a place like this..

drive a car..

shout my thoughts at the grand canyon..

lay beneath the stars..

try at a shooting range..

go to this place.. guess where..:]

have some daisies..my favorite..

shoot my own film..

designing my dream house..

to be continued.. :]

sleep-over..

last night, me and two other friends sleep over a friend's house. it was fun, we bike, play with the rabbits and watch movies. we also shared our interesting stories to one another. even though some of our other friends was not able to come, we still enjoyed the night. we reminisce the old days when we are still in high school, our unforgettable experiences and funny moments.
thanks to our friend's family, they welcome us warmly. i hope this will happen again. and looking forward in seeing our group complete.. :]

look at us.. aren't we having fun? hehe

feeling this..

i am not in the mood to post something in my blog, especially not with this kind of format.. paragraphs, words, sentences.. photos will do.......nah, i dont know what to say..

i do not understand what i feel right now, it's nuts to say that i do not feel anythings, it's just.. unexplainable in a negative way.. aw.. i hope this post lifts my mood and boosts me in doing something purposeful other than eating..

the reason behind this crazy boring feeling is the lack of initiative to be an effective human being.. in short.. laziness.. i hate being lazy, but i just cant stop being.. you know.. this..

but by sharing this feeling in my blog, i hope this blog still worth reading.
by expressing what i feel word per word, my fingers typed , my neurons firing, my eyes blinking, my lungs breathing.. i slowly leave my bored self behind..

mood uplifted.. great!! back to face book.. got to harvest some crops.. haha

demi..

she's pretty.. ;) hahaha

 

 

humbleness..

"In reality there is perhaps not one of our natural passions so hard to subdue as pride. Disguise it, struggle with it, beat it down, stifle it, mortify it as much as one pleases, it is still alive, and will every now and then peep out and show itself...For even if I could conceive that I had completely overcome it, I should probably be proud of my humility." - Benjamin Franklin

humbleness involves patience and forgiveness..
it can help you develop good personality and sociability..
some people, find it hard to humble themselves, because of that thing called pride. it influence us not to value humility and just hold on what we believe is right. we do have our own perceptions and ideas, we protect ourselves from what others say, but it is better to accept those things and realize.. what it the truth behind this 'pride' in me..

these are the ways to be humble.. (source: wikihow)
1. Appreciate your talents..self-esteem is not as same as pride..
2. Conduct an honest evaluation of yourself Honesty with yourself is the best policy.
3. Understand your limitations.. there will always be someone that can do better on something than you..
4. Recognize your own faults.. pointing at others is easier than looking at ourselves..it should not be this..
5. Stop comparing.. humbleness is not trying to be better or best..
6. Appreciate the talents and qualities of others.. separate opinions from fears..
7. Don't be afraid to make mistakes.. understand that everyone commits mistakes and tries to correct it..
8. Don't be afraid to defer to others' judgment.. you may realize that you don't actually know this as often as you think you do..
9. Rejuvenate your sense of wonder.. observe and do..
10. Seek guidance.. from the right persons..
11. Think about yourself under different circumstances.. changes makes you flexible..
12. Help others..
13. Remain teachable..An unteachable spirit is a proud spirit, which is the opposite of humility..
14. Practice gentleness.. Absorb the venom from other's attacks and react with gentleness and respect.


i hope we learn from this.. :]

echo..

by: incubus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-4NVLrMJnA

There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight

My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way, yeah

Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting

Theres something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing

Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way, yeah

Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting

rule the world..

by: take that

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KII1ruAfvsg

 

 

You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away-

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world-
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

If walls break down, I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I’ll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don’t leave me now, don’t leave me now

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

Ooooooooh
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-

Ooooooooh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight (oooooooh)
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-

All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-

wolverine

i got a guinea pig for christmas... and i love it!!!

snowy-snowy night..

when will i ever feel the true coldness of snow?

:(

 

i love the snow.. i hope it snows here..

routine..

every night, before you sleep.. do you have time to go back the things that you do for the day?
i do, and i feel like time is ssssssssooooooo fast that it knocks me at my bed again, just like last night. you know life is like a routine, you do things such as eating breakfast, lunch and dinner, take a bath, do the chores, study and then sleep... again.

feeling like the same everyday.. but you can only differentiate a day from another day if you feel different..

(complicated line!)

what if clocks are not invented yet, maybe we are enjoying the day unaware what time is it and if things are still not done you can do it tomorrow you will have different things to do in a different day... quite complicated and losing the sense of time.

some times i think if other people thought of this too, that we are just moving like the clock, in a routine.
but if we continue to think that way, we will just waste our lives... not yesterday is the same as tomorrow as today..
* the sun rises and sets in a different time everyday... even though the difference is only minutes..
* the dog barks not as the same number of barks as of yesterday..
* you comb your hair not as many as yesterday..
* it is not everyday that you will have to cry?
* not all day you can not take a bath.. haha
* you cannot eat meat all tha days of your lives?
* you cannot wear the same clothes as of yesterday...

everyday is different, it is just up to us if we will aprreciate it's difference or not :]
have a nice day!!

LOL..

i can't help but laugh.. out loud when i saw this image in facebook, my friend's friend was tagged in this photo.
hahaha.. i am a fan of patrick starfish and i love him being dumb.. and he's so cute, i do not usually like the color pink but i think it suits him best, like a cute color for a child and for a funny and bouncy starfish.

he is becoming popular as well as his best friend spongebob, i wonder why.. kidding! they're the best! they are funny.. and funny.. and funny! the creator of such cartoon was a genius.. haha

here's the image that made me laugh to death..
haha up to know i can't stop laughing..

note: the two other pink (if others do not know, they are from the hit japanese anime 'dragon ball')

still not for vacation..

 to simply....have fun..

chill and relax..

to sleep soundly..

i never thought school days would extend.. not literally because yesterday was our last day in school for christmas break.. but for me, school works haunts me.. some review to do for next year's exams, some thesis to edit, and organizing my things in school (my messy closet was due to be cleaned before the year ends).

aside from school, my personal life needs fixing too..

and our home to.. needs a thorough cleaning.. phew.. thinking about it makes me tired..

i hope i can enjoy somehow this two-week break.. foods are the only thing i enjoy..hehe.

to figure out the figure..

this rusty image

caught my attention, like it is telling me things i cannot understand.

weekdays..

why is my love game unpredictable.. >< no cheats, no tactics

uh-huh..

feeling sick..

arrived from school late this late afternoon, i feel well and ready to study after a short nap. but then i woke up and thought of posting something in my blog. i feel sick (my skin is warm to touch and i feel the need to rest) but physically not, maybe it is because im thinking that ill be sick.. it is like you'll get sick before this day ends and it delays my studying time. i still have exams for tomorrow, luckily it is only one subject.
earlier this afternoon, i viewed some blogs and i was fascinated that they incorporate images with in it. i compared them to mine.. and i realized that i should start posting some images also. hehe

like this one..

poor thing, i feel pathetic... ill make it better next time..haha

hoping to finish this..

im the kind of person who get things done fast, im working with my group for thesis and i think we are getting slower and slower everytime we need to accomplish something. maybe bacause our time managemetn was not fixed well or some of us was less interested in helping. i want to live in a fast-paced life, but not all people can sope with me, that is why i feel guilt, mabye they are pressured with my actions and ideas. but this effort i am giving is for the success of our group. i hate doing thigs alone, i see myself as pathetic. but i usually do things on my own, and asks them for editing my work or adding up infos i missed.
i dont know why i am feeling like it is my own fault.
i dont hate lazy people, the thing i am annoyed most were people who do not know how to return a favor, a simple favor.
i remember what my management professor told us: "we all have the same number of hours a day, and it is up to us on how we are going to spend it" i admit that i am lazy at times, i feel sleepy reading books and choose updating my facebook rather than studying. but i also remind myself that i am a fourth year student, and few months from now i will graduate and live my chosen career now. that is my wake-up-call for studying.. "my future" and it is effective enough to make me read some of my notes sometimes.
i hope everyone also realizes my thougths.

still dissapointed..

our group was assigned to attend duty in a provincial hospital, i was familiar with the place and the hospital setting as well. but still we had some orientation to do to refresh our memory on the procedures done as procedures varies on different hospitals.
i know how people there work and perform their procedures, i know their attitudes toward patients but today was the worst. it's like i was mentally tormented by the voice of that woman, even though i am not physically involved with her business, i was affected. i am not numb, not to feel anything while others around me was disturbed. in short she was unexplainable rude, inconsiderate, hot-headed and shouting all the time since our patient arrived.
i do not like her, the way she treat us, and specially our patient.
students came to face different situations as preparation for our chosen career, and different kinds of people to different area exposures. every students know that it is hard to please people, specially if you are not so confident with your actions and careful not to make any mistakes, because as students we are very concern about rejection and failure.
students should be taught with patience and not with rudeness, strict yet considerate and reminders are all we need to be efficient. as fourth year student, we still need some simple reminders and guidance because we still are students.

scared from what i do not know..

earlier this morning, i realized my fear.. why i do not what to do such thing is because i lack confidence and knowledge. i was disappointed with myself, for i thought i was striving to be better... but realized that my best is not good enough.. :( hopefully, that experience will help me strive to be better and i believe that it is not too late to change.. i'll stop regretting the past and just prepare for the future. ;)

methanoia.. change of heart

we had our retreat last december 1,2 and 3 at bagiuo city, the hygeia batch of nursing undergone to this spiritual activity to unwind and renewing our faith to God.
i belong to section a, whom our retreat master was father vhon rudolf villacarlos, the parish priest of talim island. i just want to share some thoughts about our retreat sessions:
the word retreat mans to surrender or to back out but it doesn't mean that it is a defeat, it is rather a triumph.
"what is essential is invisible to the eyes", we keep on looking for the perfect person, place, happening  etc. but the things that we cannot see are in it's simplest form and all we need is to feel it and realize it's true meaning. i remember the movie 'kung-fu panda' where they train hard to get the position of being the dragon warrior, but when po, the panda was chosen and rewarded with the sacred scroll of the dragon warrior, it is empty and all he saw was the reflection of himself. sometimes, we expect the most out of other people especially from our family. but 'there are no perfect family or parents, but we can be a perfect child for our family'. change is the only constant thing in this world but we find it hard to do so.
we discussed about changing ourselves to be like Jesus, how to be like Jesus? the keywords were: Humility, Empathy, Sincerity, Unconditional love, Sensitivity
we should "put our problem down every end of the day" and simply talk to God, about your concerns, about how you feel, get your self near Him by conversing with Him through prayer. remember that 'God does not count your wrong doings, the only thing that He counts is the effort we do to stay away from sin' He recognize our simple efforts in repelling sin.
lastly, 'we always look for miracles to happen, but it's better if we will be the miracle to others' let us put words into action and make a change, a difference from what others routinely do. be unique and share your love to others.

laughing to smile..

sometimes laughing at others doesn't mean that you laugh at their mistakes, it may seem to be that i mostly laugh at them not because i am a mean person, and i bully them. it's simply the thought of  'it makes me happy' seeing them.. not to be hurt, but on how they react and how they also laugh at their own simple mistakes.

i love laughing despite on different situations, you know the feeling of lightness after a good laugh? the feeling of weakness and your teary eyes? im proud of myself of not being too serious about things, i can enjoy myself through reflecting from others' lives. the thing i love most about laughing is when i see a good smile on a person's face, i smile and then laugh at myself because that person looks good and it makes me wonder the reason behind that good smile. these past days, most people are problematic socially, financially, spiritually, personally, etc. but simply smiling is the best way to make others lighten up, good conversations and good relationships starts with simple smile.

try smiling to others starting now, do not hesitate to laugh and make good relationships.

this is my task on the dot...and i want to share it to all.

living as dead..

i am reading a book entitled 'the lovely bones' by alice sebold it will soon be a movie in theaters and i am very interested in the story that's why im reading it now. although i am not finished reading it yet, im very amazed on how the story flows. it reminds me of the movie 'what dreams may come' starring robbie williams. what will you be doing when you die? where will you stay? is there a possibility that you can still be able to connect yourself to the living? on earth?
that's the topic concerned in 'the lovely bones' *read it so you'll be able to understand why i am asking these questions, i wont re-tell the book here or summarize it because i will be a spoiler to the movie and book.
i am beginning to ask myself, is there really such thing that we call 'our heaven'? not heaven as where there are angels, clouds, light, paradise and God as many of us interpreted through history. but before reaching God's heaven, think of some place where the souls go if they still have unfinished business on earth. i believe this is not we what call the 'purgatory' because that place is for those the unbaptized..i think. but like stated in the book, souls can have connection to the living to finished their 'unfinished business' as most of us believed to have. and if we were able to complete these businesses and ready to let go of the things here on earth, maybe that's the time when we can be with our creator, God. and angels and clouds and paradise too.. hehe
when i was young, i became very sensitive to this kind of conversation, maybe because i lost my father back when i was five, too young? i know. death stories chills me to death and left me of a wide imagination on how our bodies will be degraded six-feet under, as a child and just starting my interest in life and in living i don't want to be eaten by worms and ans and other stuff under ground. for me, dying isn't just sleeping and not waking up 'as many adults tell their children' but leaving your earthly body and live as a soul, living as dead or better 'existing after life' that's weird. because not dying is the end of everything. it is just the start of another world, a new world away from earth.
now, that i was grown up, death stories still scares me but not as before when i will stare far away and cry, trying to regret living even though i am still living.. haha, sounds ironic. let's just live happily as others do, living doing right things to others while we are still on earth.

unoticeable unless one of them..

i just read my daily astrological guide, i usually do it every end of the day just to compare if it really happened; and 80% of it was true. i realized that i cannot be defined solely, i need others to define me. i somehow like being that, being sociable, but i want to be known as 'me'. only me.
but i wont stick to that idea, ill make myself known but i don't know how, maybe knowing through others helps me to realize my worth as a part of a group rather than staying alone.
i experienced troubles whether to belong or not to, at those times i think i can stand alone, but a part of myself tells me that i still need to talk, i need to expose my thoughts to others beside myself. :]