hated..

i hate thinking about the things i was unsuccessful to do..
i dont want to create anger in my heart but i thinks it's burning inside..
how am i going to start another life with things involved with it..
now that i should do it in order to pay for a favor..

i know i dont have the right to condemn, to judge..
and much time passed till this present time..
i know somehow i have forgiven things..
only time heals but not erases mistakes..

so now i pray hard, every time i feel the fire..
this is not right so i need to be what is justifiable..
inner self versus society is paranoia..
only truth can bares it all..

therefore these last days, ill make it best..
ignore things for the good of all..
i know it wont last but at least i'll let it pass..
now's the second time, the chance.. take it from me..

ANGER "it's like a poison...it can take you over. Before you know it, it turns you ugly."

                                            dont take this seriously, but it's funny.. hehe

mr.right?..

Dating 101: Is He Mr. Right?


Dating Trait #1: He listens to you

The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthyof) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

 

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily

We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

 

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you

So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. 

 

 

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold.

 

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life

In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Does your Mr. Next possess all five qualities? If so, congratulations! You have done your homework, chosen wisely, and are now well positioned for relationship success.

If not, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back into the dating pool with a clearer understanding of who you want to date. Remember, finding your life partner isn't always easy, but by being clear, honoring yourself, and acting accordingly, you'll cut down on wasted time with Mr. Wrong and Mr. Next, and ultimately make room for Mr. Right. 

 

**i think he is.. but through this i realized he's not.. :(

maybe im just a friend to him... ><

summer..

i think.. this will be the most memorable summer..so far .. that will be happening..
for this is my last summer as a student.. >< well going to attend review classes by april and then goodbye school..

my and my clustered friends.. have plans for a enjoyable vacation.. they all suggested to have swimming..
so far i have 3 schedule of night swimming and 1 over night spending videoke..

i hope these plans materialize.. because i hate being upset with the things i hope for..

my friends have different preferences.. some wants the event to be extra special, some was just ordinary and some memorable..

im happy to have different personalites of friends.. which.. i can surely cope up with.. :]

happy summer!

clinical..

earlier was our clinical graduation.. which is intended only for student nurses..

we almost got late, because .. we dont know why, haha..

i've got pictures of me and my friends, we are happy and participative,. (me?) haha, and some of us got emotional while singing the song chosen for our parents.. "salamat" (thank you in english) by yeng constantino..

i was inspired by my friend's short speech for the students and for the administrators.. we didn't said out goodbyes yet, because it is only the first part of graduation.. the second part is on saturday.. march 27.. the academic graduation, together with all the courses..

here's some photos..

mixed up..

it'll be graduation day next week..
March 22 - Clinical Graduation (for student nurses only)
March 27 - Academic Graduation (for all graduating students)

i know all of us, hygeia batch2010. feels the same way, mixed emotions of happiness and sadness for this school days will be over within a couple of weeks. *sigh.. it's hard to leave people you've been seeing for almost four years, learning and having fun whatever we are doing..
i believe to the saying 'save the best for the last'. coz i have been experiencing my best days this past week months, .. i think im not ready to let go of being a student yet, i want to spend time learning more.. and enjoying everytime we have to attend classes and duties.. but it's over.. now is the time to stand on my own feet.
it's so emotional for every graduate to remember the things they have been through for the past 4 years.. as every individual has to be and should be,, every thing has to end.. at the graduation day..
hopefully we wont forget each other soon.. somehow, we've touched each other's hearts and stick to each other's minds..

God bless to hygeia batch 2010 and to all the graduates..

the "f" word remind me of a person..

not a friendly word..

simply this..

do i look like a guy?

i dont like it when a person told me that i look like a guy.. yes, i got my father's looks but still in a girly way.. obviously because im a girl..

sometimes i get insecure with myself because i dont have that beautiful feminine features, but still satisfied with what i look.. just accepting that other women are blessed to have pretty faces and girly looks.. and some are not..

sometimes, i see myself as typical, normal, unnoticed and one of the crowd.. but when someone recognizes me and lift my personality to others.. that's when i start to feel ..'me'.. the feeling of getting yourself known..

that's the reason why i dont wear make up.. or anything.. but now being influenced with my pretty friends.. im starting to fix myself and be pretty recognizable.. hopefully..

and now here i go again, insecurity invades my personalty.. psychologically and socially..

i want to be like every other ladies who look pretty.. ><

im not pleasing anyone to like me.....and that person?.... i think just teased me because i think im the least pretty girl he/she know.. so mean! hate it..

:(

want to see my pictures? click g-r-a-n-e
.. it's my facebook account..

lub-dub..lub-dub..

that's the sound of the HEART.. <3

my heart.. ><

im in doubt.. so therefore.. i'll love..?

hottiness..

im so bothered wiht this global warming.. but i dont know what significant action i should do..

im just a nobody, as compared to the authority responsible for climate changes.. but of course all of us are generally responsible for the effects..

the weather's so hot, even just sitting down can cause you to sweat.. isn't it alarming that water is running out? water for living.. hot weather can cause you heat stroke, sun burns, eye effects (vision impairments), and others..

my friends are planning to go swimming, but im kind of hesitant to join because i can imagine myself boiling in the swimming pool .. i dont want my skin to be darker..><

some friends and i decided to form a less-plastic-consuming-group.. i hope this can make a change..

i hope someday, somehow.. this climate change will reverse.. let's pray for it.. and do something for it.. i believe that proper education and cooperation are the key to this problem.

back for a moment..

updates on me..

done with the seminar.. last week thursday (march4,2010) it was i believe,, the grandest seminar among the four section.. ill post some pictures when i have time to upload them.. we've done good.. although of course some people are not yet pleased with our full effort preparation..

anyways, this week end.. we attended the routinely-week-end-review.. subject was about research.. or thesis.. been good :] not boring reviewer.. she's cool... literally.. she provide us reasonable time for beaks.. comes early and dismisses early..

now,, (monday) we're going on duty .. our LAST STUDENT duty.. for the next time that we'll going to be on duty is when we passed the board exam.. you know this somehow pressures me, coz our clinical intructor is the most 'toxic' one.. or i should say.. in his area.. you will move, act and do things on your own.. like a real ward nurse.. well, too early to judge the rotation duty but i'll do my best to satisfy my instructor's orders..

good luck for me!!

till next time!!

 

a shot with my lovely friends in a restaurant.. celebrating after the seminar..

from the left: april, angel, me, annamay & anamarie

 

me and my beautiful classmates.. in their dance clothes.. me, still in my chinese costume..