speak out..

earlier this day we (again) tried to agreed upon some issues related to our to-be-conducted seminar on the 1st week of march..
but as usual.. things happen again, voices raised.. and im not comfortable with it, if others find it funny or just ignores it.. i can help but notice it..
you know, i have feelings to.. and there are some significant feelings that are need to share about.. like the one i am feeling right now.. i am not against anyone.. i know that every person has the right to speak about his/her ideas and perceptions.. but it could be better if it's in a nice way.. a professional way rather..
some people, are used to talk differently.. some chose not to talk at all and some are trying to be heard but not given a chance to..
i cannot hate our class.. it's my family in school.. we may have differences but still we need to work on this together to be successful.. i just hope for my classmates to listen to anyone's idea and give him/her a chance to talk.. and of course to bring her self esteem up and not to reject it.. you know.. being considerate on  different matters can lead to a unified goal.. there is no and bad suggestion.. what's good is they did try to think and somehow contribute..

just want to share that i felt over-powered.. there are two ways which i can respond to this kind of situations..1) i felt melted with the words i heard and loss my self and what i stand for.. and 2.) it the voices remained that powerful and pissed me off.. i can do the things which have done to me.. and lose control over my temper and self..which is far more to happen.. i usually felt dying-guilty after i did that.. coz im not naturally that..

what happened is the first one.. i was depressed and weakened..
but what i felt is not important.. what i can do is much better..
i pray and hope that we learn how to listen.. to speak out is good and it is where leaders are formed through voices being heard.. but not let us remember that not all people can be as vocal as the others.. some tends to find the perfect time to shine and be recognized..

learned something?

life's little depressions..

here's some thoughts that depressed me on the dot...

1. the bicycle guy( whom i saw for the third time) while walking home, it depressed me that he's always biking.. i want to bike too.. i wonder why he's not at school..?

2. my not-so big school expenses.. the more i budget my allowance, the more things i want to spend of..

3. these past week.. i noticed myself bathing for almost 30 minutes.. i wonder how this crazy thing happen??

4. our topic in course audit subject today was about oncologic nursing (study of cancer).. it makes me sad..

5. finding it hard to feel relaxed when i think of the things i should know!

6. imagining the future..

7. thought of people's un-matched thoughts.. whom will i choose to believe in..

8. thinking of love..

the way i am..

by ingrid michaelson

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJOzdLwvTHA 

If you were falling
Then I would catch you.
You need a light
I’d find a match.

‘Coz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly,
here take my sweater.
Your head is aching,
I’ll make it better.

Coz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I’d buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

‘Coz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am

beneficial enough..

relaxing for a while can somehow stimulate your will to study..

ironically speaking.. but true..

last week, we have been released from subjects and review classes because of the annual college fair.. we did nothing..but i forgot.. a little bit work from our thesis still takes the place.. but most of the days we spent doing nothing..

this somehow relieved the stress in our gray matters (brain) from a whole-week study period of two months to go..

losing the internet connection since last week, for me is like being sealed in an empty box.. with less interest in watching television shows.. and not able to open my FB account.. i was stocked up with early study time and the feeling of "time should be worth-spent"..

i hope these things helps me in building a good study habit..
wish more perseverance and patience for me.. :]

this image is just nice to share but not to do..

see..