simply this..

do i look like a guy?

i dont like it when a person told me that i look like a guy.. yes, i got my father's looks but still in a girly way.. obviously because im a girl..

sometimes i get insecure with myself because i dont have that beautiful feminine features, but still satisfied with what i look.. just accepting that other women are blessed to have pretty faces and girly looks.. and some are not..

sometimes, i see myself as typical, normal, unnoticed and one of the crowd.. but when someone recognizes me and lift my personality to others.. that's when i start to feel ..'me'.. the feeling of getting yourself known..

that's the reason why i dont wear make up.. or anything.. but now being influenced with my pretty friends.. im starting to fix myself and be pretty recognizable.. hopefully..

and now here i go again, insecurity invades my personalty.. psychologically and socially..

i want to be like every other ladies who look pretty.. ><

im not pleasing anyone to like me.....and that person?.... i think just teased me because i think im the least pretty girl he/she know.. so mean! hate it..

:(

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lub-dub..lub-dub..

that's the sound of the HEART.. <3

my heart.. ><

im in doubt.. so therefore.. i'll love..?

hottiness..

im so bothered wiht this global warming.. but i dont know what significant action i should do..

im just a nobody, as compared to the authority responsible for climate changes.. but of course all of us are generally responsible for the effects..

the weather's so hot, even just sitting down can cause you to sweat.. isn't it alarming that water is running out? water for living.. hot weather can cause you heat stroke, sun burns, eye effects (vision impairments), and others..

my friends are planning to go swimming, but im kind of hesitant to join because i can imagine myself boiling in the swimming pool .. i dont want my skin to be darker..><

some friends and i decided to form a less-plastic-consuming-group.. i hope this can make a change..

i hope someday, somehow.. this climate change will reverse.. let's pray for it.. and do something for it.. i believe that proper education and cooperation are the key to this problem.

back for a moment..

updates on me..

done with the seminar.. last week thursday (march4,2010) it was i believe,, the grandest seminar among the four section.. ill post some pictures when i have time to upload them.. we've done good.. although of course some people are not yet pleased with our full effort preparation..

anyways, this week end.. we attended the routinely-week-end-review.. subject was about research.. or thesis.. been good :] not boring reviewer.. she's cool... literally.. she provide us reasonable time for beaks.. comes early and dismisses early..

now,, (monday) we're going on duty .. our LAST STUDENT duty.. for the next time that we'll going to be on duty is when we passed the board exam.. you know this somehow pressures me, coz our clinical intructor is the most 'toxic' one.. or i should say.. in his area.. you will move, act and do things on your own.. like a real ward nurse.. well, too early to judge the rotation duty but i'll do my best to satisfy my instructor's orders..

good luck for me!!

till next time!!

 

a shot with my lovely friends in a restaurant.. celebrating after the seminar..

from the left: april, angel, me, annamay & anamarie

 

me and my beautiful classmates.. in their dance clothes.. me, still in my chinese costume..